once again i return to gordon from visiting olin. once again i am glad to know who i know. once again i wonder what my life would have been like, only to shake my head because that is something i don't want to imagine. once again i am struck by the kindness and openness to new faces, by the huge hugs and happy smiles, by the sense that one is loved because one is.
i only wish i knew people better - never worse. i only wish i saw people more often - never less. i only wish for more. i never wish for less. ever. at olin i am reminded that i matter, that others matter, that i matter to others, and that others matter to me. please say hi. please come by. and if you don't, i will... someday. when i can. because olin makes me smile inside.
red sky shimmering, deep sky glowing, music strumming in my ears,
blue sky brightening, deep sky fleeing, music playing all around,
gold sky sparkling, deep sky closing, music soaring in and out,
through the clouds and falling stars
through the trees and flowers
through the seas and waving winds
through the space and hours
i've been photoshopping for hours this afternoon and evening - for an assignment, not for fun. and i'm tired of doing it. i'm also just tired. i wish i could go on a hug round and gather goodness so i can sleep. my roommate is playing very nice, mellow, happy-me acoustic guitar music. i like it. it makes me want to sing, to create, to dance, to just sit with my eyes closed and melt into a starry sky. i would float up, towards the open spaces, and it would be warm and comforting. all around the stars shine and wink, and their light is exhilarating and soothing all at once. all around is the deepest, richest blue imaginable, with a river - a road - of silvery gold light leading from the moon through to the depths of the fullest emptiness. that is my path - down the river into the ocean of solid nothingness. and it's most beautiful. shalom.
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